Sitting Alone

Now, I don’t want to take out my very obvious anger out on my very loyal readers, so if I seem a little angry throughout the next few blog I apologize right now. Now my question to all of you is, have you ever been excluded, pushed aside and treated like dirt. I can tell you from far too much experience that I have! Not only have I been treated poorly but also treated like I don’t even exist. In this specific post, I do NOT want to hear comments such as, I’m sorry Noah, or it will blow over because that's not why I’m writing this. Not to make you all feel sorry for me or to have a whining session. I am simply bringing up a past subject of mine, the subject of middle school.

Throughout my education career I always had the most friends, I don’t know why and I don’t know how but things came easy to me in terms of the social aspect of school. But ever since my transition from elementary  school to middle school, things have gone down the toilet. Whether it be the social aspect or the academic aspect, middle school has always been a hard time for myself. Really the only thing I can count on in my life currently is sleeping, I sleep well but have terrible days. My problems vary from ungrateful and insensitive teachers to horrible and unkind students.

I want to put another question out in my writing, how would you feel if your best friends shoved you aside like you meant nothing to them. Over the past few weeks I have experienced that terrible occurrence.  I definitely don’t want to go in the specific details of the events leading up to this unfortunate misshape. All I can say is that you can never have true friends, even if you want to. One of the only good things coming out of this event is that I noticed that certain people that I thought to be my friends were not. That made me open my eyes and not waste my time with horrible friends.

So here I am, sitting alone in the lunch room. Nobody even dares to cross my eye line. Let me tell you this, really chose your friends, if you make the wrong decisions you will end up like me.

 

Daily Question: Did you ever have a fight with your friends, and if so what was it about?

Cruel School

Over the past few weeks I have been an observer. In my past I have been taking part in what I am now observing. The slow disintegration of friendships, love and life is what I am observing. That may be a tad bit cheesy or overblown but in this writers mind I believe this to be 100% true. Also in the past I have talked about the life as a middle school student. But in the past weeks I have come to a convulsion decision that middle school may very well be the worst possible time in ANYONE’S life. From what I have asked people most of them agree with that statement. Even with my 13th birthday looming in the upcoming days, I still can’t get my mind off of the incomprehensible  and terrible life’s that my friends and I suffer because of this terrible time on life.

13 to the Jewish population 13 means adulthood. To me it just means 4 more years of pain and suffering. Throughout the year one of my very good friends has not gone a week without breaking into tears. A seemingly familiar act to me.  Bullying and immaturity is mainly what causes my friend to get so upset so much of the time. To juggle activities, academics and popularity makes ones mind burst into flames. And for my friend this happens all to much for her. I try my best to make things better in her life, being a better friend, making her laugh and just try my best but in the end nothing is going to help no matter how hard I try.

I can just tell in her eyes everyday that she doesn’t want to be in the place she is in. And I know that pain all to well. Being ignored and pushed aside is one of the main difficulties I must deal with on a daily basis. I feel terrible for her, she is even thinking about switching schools mid year. I just cannot handle it anymore. So I am putting it out there that adults NEED to be more aware about the challenges that middle school students are facing every day. Please help my friend stay in Denver and help her stop being so sad. Open your eyes everybody can’t you see that were miserable! Please comment and have my best friend not go to a different school. We wish the best for you!

 

NOAH