Saturday, September 5, 2009
Week In Hell
I apologize for my lack of writing in the past few days, I have been caught up in school. School is a funny thing, especially in seventh grade. I have spent the last four days of school being hit by volley balls, being ignored by my friends and having a terrible time. An unfortunate occurrences considering my excitement I had towards the school year. But things can change. To elaborate on my first week of school, it was terrible.
I was ignored by every kid I tried to talk to with in fifty feet of me. Still with a confident feeling in my mind I let the ignoring pass by. But t just kept getting worse. My confident feeling went south after the ignoring got to a point that nobody would be happy. The second day of school passed, I got into our big red car and just started to weep uncontrollably. The very pessimistic thoughts I was trying to block all sumer were entering my head as fast as you can say this sucks.
As you can tell I feel very strongly about this issue. How would you feel if your friends were ignoring you. I'm not trying to attack anybody at all but after weeks of therapy and constant Dr's appointments for my problems with school I am blind sighted with disappointment. Its hard to believe that I don't realize now how kids my age act towards each other. I just don't understand it. I guess my abnormal behavior takes part in me not having friends.
The next day of school I went to the dentist after school I had such a bad day that I openly cried in front of everybody. I was abashed after this event. My mind just capsized. I had my dentist telling me how good of a person I am. My friends don't even do that. So in the long view of things it was a deplorable week. Hopefully next week will be better. Hopefully...
Noah Reynolds
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noah,
ReplyDeletegosh, i'm really sorry you had such a rough week. you have every reason to be unhappy.
being ignored by your friends is tough...
but you know what?
your abilty to analyze events... to describe your thoughts and feelings... to share these things with others through your excellent writing... these are -remarkable- skills for a young man of your age... and will help you pull through rough weeks like this one.
i've got a hunch next week will better...
hang in there, my man!
love,
walden
This is Marilyn:
ReplyDeleteOh, Noah. Middle school can be tough. Everyone -- boys and girls -- are changing so much mentally, emotionally, and physically that sometimes no one you see in school has a firm grip on anything and everyone is just behaving badly. and i mean everyone. so noah, it's not just you. and it's not just your school. it's back to my middle school years -- in the dark ages-- and it will be true for kids just born now who will go to middle school in 2021. i agree with walden that writing about these things will help you sort through it all even if you're not sure what it all means. the problem is some of your friends could be helped by blogging about their feelings and they aren't. so here you are ahead of the pack, though i realize it might not feel that way.
you know sometimes i can still feel that chill from being ignored by a friend during middle school.
important to know though -- it comes and it goes and you'll make your way through it.
love marilyn